No seriously, how?

I’ve like totally forgotten. Last night I was out with some friends in Brooklyn and just as all of my friends had all disappeared I was standing behind the bar changing one of the songs on the ipod, the dude who owned it had let us pick the music for a bit, and this long blonde haired guy who was sitting at the bar was like ‘get me a beer’ and i was like ‘*silence* (thinking ermm)*’  and he’s like ‘get me a beer’ and i look around for my friends who I realise have gone to buy cigarettes at that exact moment. And the guy continues to be super aggressive and bitchy about his beer and he’s like “get the fuck away from behind the bar if you’re not gonna get me a beer” and then the guy who owns the bar suddenly turns on me too and is like “just move out the way” and I’m like feeling super stupid and alone and this blonde dude just starts ripping into me for no reason and giving me shit and being really macho and mean and I have no idea what to say. And I felt so weird when it was happening because I swear I usually know exactly what to say in this situation. Or when it’s happening to my friends I know exactly how to defend them. But when you’re standing there on your own it’s totally different. Like usually when someone tries to help you you’re all like ‘it’s ok I got this’ but when you look around and no-one’s there you’re all speechless. I came up with the lamest comeback, actually so lame I can’t even use it now, and when it comes to lame stuff and embarrassment you know I’m a pro and super open about it, so you know it must have been like seriously lame. So I stood there feeling like I was in a movie. Like this…

When really I wanted to feel like this…

Anyway it just makes you realise how important your friends are and the people that you love and that love you are. You just feel better when you have them there. And you take it for granted when someone tries to help you out cause usually you’re like ‘I can take care of myself’ but when everyone’s gone to buy cigarettes and your real best buds aren’t there and you are left taking care of yourself sometimes your legs just go all wobbly and all you have is “ermm”.

It sucks.

So yeah, friends, they’re good. Don’t take ’em for granted. Cause they’re the ones that deal with A Holes in bars, even when you don’t realise and you think you’re doing it yourself. The fact that they’re there is the reason you feel so tough and brave in the first place.